Well, I didn't kill myself. I've decided to wait until Xander has left for the summer, then do it. Hopefully, I will find something worth living for between now and June.
I finally got my new script for my antidepressants today. My therapist had to refuse to leave my doctor's office until he had made the call, since he had promised to do it on Friday and never did. Now I have to titrate my dosage so I get used to it again. A week at 10 mg, a week at 20 mg, and then the full 30 mg the next week should be okay.
I think I've givin up on my 'friends' online. Whenever I try to talk about how I've been feeling, all I get is silence. Absolutely nothing. It's like I never said anything to begin with. I wasn't attention seeking. All I wanted was to know that someone out there still cares. I guess I've learned the answer to that. I'm not going to make a theatrical goodbye the way others have in the past. I haven't been posting very often anyway, due to feeling so badly, so I doubt anyone will notice I've gone. It also leaves it open for me to return, when I feel better, if I should choose to. Right now, I don't see that happening.
Question is, do I leave the Facebook group they have created, or just ignore it? End my friendships with everyone on Facebook, or leave them be and just not reply? I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, but I'm tired of having mine hurt.
2 comments:
You go on your myspace page, yes?
You can talk to me through there.
Please don't kill yourself.
You've got a kid who'll still need a mother.
How will your relatives explain to Xander what happened to mommy when he gets back for the fall?
I never got to say thank you when you were giving me advice on how to treat my depression a while back.
I'd be lying if I said that i'm no longer derpressed. I still have episodes, but they're few and far between, instead on one to two every week. You've made a difference in my life when I thought I was alone. I can't thank you enough.
Please, for the sake of your child, hold on. There are better days ahead for you.
Duets don't work with one person!!!!
How's that future Music Teacher going to feel in the years to come, if his Mom has gone? And where will he go??....Not to that fucking sod you were married to, I hope!!! You need to think about that, he's a very bad example for a young boy.
I am not good at the sympathy thingy, O.
More the kick in the ass type of Mom and person, but we all love you! You need to know that and that we will always be there for you, always!
Your not allowed to check out on any level, so stop talking like that. Please, please, please!
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