Xander keeps asking me when Mike and I are going to get married, and why we haven't already. I try to explain that Mike doesn't love me in that way, but he wants Mike to be his step-father, and will brook no denials. He's determined that Mike and I need to get married. How can I tell Xander that I would marry Mike in a heartbeat, if he would have me, but he doesn't want me. I want so very much to spend the rest of my life with Mike. I honestly think we would make it work.

Next month is the 8th anniversary of our first meeting. I've been in love with Mike longer than I was in love with my husband. Mostly because Mike would never, ever hurt me the way Joe did. He hurts me unintentionally, instead.

Halloween went well. No trick or treaters, but I dressed up just the same. I told Xander about Samhain, and we got out my runes for him to try. He seemed to like that, so I told him he could make his own set. I just need to find where on my harddrive I have the rune meanings sheet that I made a couple years ago.